Tuesday, June 30, 2009
{ 9:54 AM }
CAUTION:This is random!
I am really quite upset,
never have i been this affected by a artist's death?
But ya,
the fact that Mj played a big part in my life,
some may not noe but,
As it is i am veryy very VERY,
affected when i see others own a i pod, i touch,
all the i's except i mac la,
Cause i lost mine which really meant the whole world to me,
it was like a baby,
not only because it had my name on it,
but because someone i love truly gave it to me as a random gift,
just cause he felt like pampering me,
and i kept it like gold, treated it like a baby,
listen to it like a mummy.
BUT NO, SOME ASS MUST TAKE IT AWAY FROM ME RIGHT?
OK back to my pt,
I remember in sem1 when i had troubles be it sch, family, relationship, friends,
i would actually ponder over such issues in the bus,
just while i do so,
"BEAT IT" plays,
and that song i say,
it really changes my mood and thoughts,
i feel alive in the morning cause of that song,
cause being in a design course turns u into a zombie.
I feel happy for some reason when i listen to Mj's songs,
and my ipod was full of his songs,
like seriously,
when i heard he was dead,
it just brings me back to the days i had my ipod wid me,
and how i used to listen his songs that made me love him,
this just sucks so much,
even while typing i am tearing.
DAMN IT.
But MJ just had to many critics he rather just die,
i pity him sometimes.
But i loved him so much,
when i heard he died,
i just stared at the msg for a good 10mins,
then switched on the tv at like 7am?
And read the headlines,
And fell into a wind whirl of thoughts.
WHICH I DIDNT WANNA THINK ABT.
Its ironic how i lost my ipod,
and how he died just a few months later,
the same yr,
It freaks me out,
listening to his songs just give me goosebumps,
even before he was dead,
now it can just make me cry.
The songs r repeating itself countless number of times,
i feel good, it makes me happy for some reason.
Well he is in a better place,
but my i pod isnt!!!!!!
HAIZ.
PLUS AM REALLY SCARED,
i have been having chest pains recently,
i dono why i dono if i should go check it,
and i am losing appetite,
today i had diarrhea, and i don feel like eating,
when i eat i wanna puke it out.
This is scary,
even more scary cause H1N1 IS SPREADING RAPIDLY.
Lord save me from all this thoughts and illness,
protect me like how you always do,
heal me like how you did when i was sick and depressed,
give me strength lord.
Baby's sick too :(
Fever,flu,cough
Lord cure my loved one,
and make him healthy,
Protect my family,
as they go to wrk everyday,
I cant bare to see them in pain oh lord,
So please protect us I noe you will :)
AMEN.
