Saturday, May 24, 2008
{ 12:03 PM }
I seriously don get it.It has been an annoyingly
emotional week.
SO is it me?
Which low self esteem person
says i think i am...
Well cant say it out,
It has not only been endless
projects,
but also endless tears.
Life sucks for now i guess.
I will still be who i always am,
jus fake smiles printed all over
my dam retarded face.
Call me whoever, bitch about me , do watsoever
you wan.
BUT i am not someone to fuck around with.
Does it seem like when i need
help i come to u?
this is how much of love we shared
for 18 years now?
Oh if that is wat u think,
be it la ok.
Simple favour puts u off eh?
OH if u claim u have
other lil ones out there,
I AM BETTER OFF DEAD THEN!
Forget about me,
if i was ever in the wrong
for wat has happened
i beg to differ,
and am sorry from the bottom of my black heart.
I hav tried my level best
to speak up and correct you,
but as indians our ego is
as big as an elephant,
nothin will and can be changed.
U always make assumptions
and think i hav got
some superhero power to
predict, be it then.
I might consider being the next
wat? um...
THE MINDWOMAN?
This aint some telepathy game ure playing,
reality check,
itsss LIFE!!!
Donno wat it means?
Go dig ur bloody dictionary la.
What hav i done?
IF u wanna brood about the past
is that suppose to be my fault?
WELL, i believe in god,
He taught me to forgive and forget.
Maybe u a bit siao la.
Can tell,
i mean,
not only did u do it to me,
but to him,
u could hav been angry wid us for god noes wat reasons
but when we meet u become some i dono,
so dam effin sarcastic n rude,
it really up to you to make decisions,
youre old enough,
probably u jus need some time,
i will be waiting,
For the tears u made me shed you owe me,
i am still willing to make it up to u,
but watever came out from ur mouth for the past
few days aint very nice.
I NEED A BREAK,
BRING ME SOMEWHERE,
BEACH, PARK ?
ANYWHERE.
You, you and you.
iAMtotallyDisappointedNever
haveiThoughtYouallWould
dothistome.
for those people who knows
about wats going on about all this,
i thank u truckloads for being there,
ur shoulder was more then enough.
your msgs jus made my day,
ur hugs made me sway,
i love u,
like everyday.
i WILL SMILE jus for you.
MY pondering starts from 3,2,1 NOW!
